There never seems to be enough time. I feel like I'm continually accounting for my minutes as a miser counts his coins. And I don't even have a job--I don't have time for one!
But God tells me, "There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under heaven" (Ecclesiastes 3:1) He says, "...the wise heart will know the proper time and procedure." (Ecclesiastes 8:5)
I need some major wisdom then, Lord, for I'm spinning my wheels most days.
On Sunday our pastor talked about God wanting us to have order in our lives. Amen, brother, I'm all for that. He quoted Proverbs 24:27, "Finish your outdoor work and get your fields ready; after that, build your house." See, definite order in how to approach your work. But what are my fields and what is my house? Help! I want order, but I don't know how to establish it.
I have things I want to get done, things I feel called to do, things I feel compelled to do, but I have to be flexible enough for someone to drop by unannounced and visit a while. I have to spend time with people I love. I have to maintain and develop relationships. People are always first for me. They make life fun and worthwhile. So you think people are my fields? Maybe. Then my house would be. . . ?
There is never a shortage of things I COULD do, but what SHOULD I do? I analyze the use of every minute and try to organize my time, but even then I wonder if the time spent thinking about it actually wastes the precious time. OY! You see how I go in circles over this? Is anyone else feeling dizzy right now?
I've been praying a lot about it this week and God has shown me three verses.
I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.
Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, "This is the way; walk in it.
He promises over and over He'll direct me and I'm ashamed I haven't seen my problem until now.
...I am the Lord your God, who teaches you what is best for you, who directs you in the way you should go.
Yet again, I'm having trouble trusting God.
Just as He asks me to trust Him with my money or my children, He asks me to trust Him with my time. I am faced with a choice. Will I worry about how to spend my days and what I need to accomplish or will I start each morning in His presence and then make a plan? Will I accept disruptions in my schedule as divine and enjoy them? Will I trust that whatever happens in a day is no mistake? Can I determine not to worry about the things on my list that don't get finished and purpose to tackle them tomorrow? Can I hand Him my future and say, "Thy will be done"?
Lord, I don't want to waste a minute of the precious gift of time. Help me trust You to order my days. Give me wisdom. Speak to me. Direct me. I thank You that even time is in Your hands.
And now, if you'll excuse me, I feel God directing me to my kitchen floor. As my dear friend, Amanda, would say, "It's disgusting." I hear ya, Lord.
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