Monday, January 17, 2011

Not Happy Birthday

Subconsciously, I think I've been dreading this day for about a week.

(Hey, wait a minute--Subconsciously, I think--isn't that an oxymoron, or maybe just bad writing. Never mind.)

Today is my birthday and I'm getting to the age where the numbers aren't sounding so good to me anymore. As of 12:41 p.m. I am 47 and in my mind you might as well say I'm 63 because in a survey they probably fall in the same group. The older you get the bigger the age span gets in those things. You start out fitting into the 15-19 age group, then it's 20-29, 30-46 and 47-84. Oh brother.

I don't know what my problem is. I have nothing to be depressed about. I'm in the best shape of my life physically. Last week I gave away clothes I wore in high school (Notice the hoarder tendencies? I still had clothes from 30 years ago?!) because I'll never be able to fit into them being FIVE sizes bigger than what I wear now. My husband is awesome. My kids are great. I have good relationships with my extended family and even my in-laws. I have wonderful friends and people in my life, a terrific church family. And I'd never want to revisit an age. I love my life. Truly. God has been gracious and abundant.

So I guess I need to take the advice of so many people who have chided me for screwing up my face when they've wished me a happy birthday. Today I choose to thank God for the amazing blessings in my life, for the love He has surrounded me with, and mostly for bringing me into His family. I hate to think of what I would be without His touch on my life.

God is good. A birthday is a great time to acknowledge another year of His benevolence. Pardon me while I do so.

Thank You Lord. You continually astound me with your blessings. I find myself thinking often, "Who am I? Why me?" How could I have anything but joy in my heart this day? You are so faithful, so gentle. Today I celebrate You and Your goodness.

How can I keep from singing Your praise?
How can I ever say enough?
How amazing is Your love!
How can I keep from shouting Your name?
I know I am loved by the King
and it makes my heart want to sing.

Today is not happy birthday. Today is PRAISE GOD!

Photo Credit: 3liz4


Christine said...

Happy birthday, Tami!!!!! Yay, God!

Linda said...

I supposed it would be easier if those of us blazing the trail were doing it with more grace.

You are lovely in every way. Have a lovely day friend.

Marsha Young said...

Tami - Well, let's see ... "sort of happy birthday" ?? I don't know, that doesn't seem to quite be the right thing to say.

Sounds like you are thoroughly thankful, while still experiencing very human frustration...yep - it happens.

"For the creation was subjected to frustration, not by its own choice, but by the will of the one who subjected it, in the hope that the creation itself will be liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the gorious freedom of the children of God."
Romans 8:20-21. NIV

I don't know about you, but liberation from the "bondage of decay" is a daily battle for me. :) God bless you - Marsha

Yolanda said...

Happy Birthday. You are still young . I will be 47 this year too.

Miriam Pauline said...

I praise God for giving you to me as a friend with every post I read! Hoping today is filled with God-touches that makes him totally tangible in your heart. Happy Birthday my friend!