Monday, July 25, 2011

When There Are No Answers

They ask tough questions, tears in their eyes. They desperately want an answer they can swallow, something, anything, to make sense of their pain, to relieve the burden of their mind.

Why does life have to be so hard?
Why does God keep saying no?

Why can't I be okay with His plan?

Why can't I trust?

I feel inept. I have no answers, no good advice, no beautiful soothing words or magic wand to wipe it all away. Life is hard. People hurt and God disappoints our earthly visions of how things should be. He doesn't always make sense, so how can I give a palatable solution? How can I explain God?

I can't. And I don't try.

Instead I listen, wondering if letting them vocalize their disappointment allows it out of their head. Like opening the valve on a pressure cooker, can speaking of it bring release? Once the words have escaped their mouths, can they rattle around in their brains any longer?

I hug, giving assurance in my touch that they aren't awful for doubting or questioning. When all else fails, I squeeze 'em tight, communicating without words.

And I pray, for peace, for endurance, for God to show Himself in a new way.

It doesn't seem like much, but it's what I have, so like the little boy with loaves and fish, I give it, trusting Him to use it. Humans don't have answers to God-sized questions, at least I don't. God's given me ears and arms instead.


Pia said...

i need a hug hug right now...

Lisa Maria said...

Hi Tami.. I'm in this place right now. My eldest daughter came home from college for summer vacation and is angry at God. She feels that He didn't answer any of her prayers and she has just blocked her mind against Him.

I've spent the last 2 1/2 months trying to get through to her... you're so right all we can do ultimately is to pray for them and surrender them into His hands. Even when He gives us the answers to give.. how can you get someone to open up and listen? Its all in His hands!

God Bless!

Tami Boesiger said...

Pia--Wish you didn't live halfway around the globe. I'd give you that hug.

Lisa Maria--Struggles with my kids wear me out and stress me out the most. It's a HUGE lesson in trust, isn't it? Praying for you and your daughter this day.