The same old problem jolts me awake.
What is the matter with me? During the day I consciously decide to trust God, to give it to Him. It takes practice and I'm working hard at it, truly I am, but at night . . . how can I control that response? How do I stop myself from waking up worried?
I know the only answer is to pray and I do, but so many prayers have been offered about this, I'm at a loss. What more can I ask? What more can be said? Haven't I brought it all before Him many times? Doesn't He know? How is a person to pray then?
. . . the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will.
I call upon the Holy Spirit to speak for me. Can his groans, the ones words cannot express, explain my panic, my fear, my anxiety? Can He get through to God for me? At 3:AM I am grateful I don't have to be eloquent or coherent or conjure up a right attitude. I am thankful for my Helper, my Counselor who prays for God's will when I cannot.
And as I lay quietly, waiting for the Holy Spirit to plead on my behalf, my heartbeat calms, my body relaxes.
I know God hears and a new prayer eeks out of me.
Thank You, Lord, for the incredible gift of the Holy Spirit, God inside me, my Advocate, my Prayer Partner, my Strength. Thank You for never leaving me alone.
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