I want to be more. I want to be better.
Yet sometimes in my quest to improve myself, I wonder if my dissatisfaction is a cover. Is this a nice way of saying I want more and I want better? Am I disguising my selfish nature as self-improvement? Are my earthly desires, my temporal wishes distracting me from the beautiful gifts He's placed within me?
Do I slap God in the face by uttering these things?
Not only do I want to be more, I want to do more. I want my time on earth to matter, to make a difference. I want to leave behind something not easily forgotten. But in all my wanting, I get frustrated. In my own eyes I don't measure up. Others accomplish greater things. I realize my insignificance in a great big world and feel defeated.
I know the attitude is wrong, ringing of discontent, but I feel powerless to stop it. Where is the freedom and joy I'm supposed to find in Christ?
When I find myself craving more, it's a sign my focus has veered to me. Who do I want to be better for? Am I seeking to honor the Lord or impress my fellow man? Am I truly striving to be the best Tami for God, or am I doing it for my own ego? When I feel anxious and restless, is it because my spirit senses a disconnect? I need more of Him, more time in prayer, more time in His Word, more quiet reflection on Him and His ways.
“There is only one answer to our craving for more meaning or more purpose in life, and that is God himself.”
Constantly Craving: How to Make Sense of Always Wanting More
And while the world may see that as a waste of time, for we Christians it is necessary. Jesus Himself said, "Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God." When I want more, what I'm really craving is His supernatural touch in my life. I yearn for Paradise--heaven--and since I can't get there without God's divine summons, I must do the next best thing and rest in His presence here.
Do you ever feel this way, torn between what you want to be and what you are? Do you find yourself always wanting more? There's only one solution, my friends. Seek God.
But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
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