No Higher Calling

You feel like singing today?

"Down at Your feet, O Lord, is the most high place.
In Your presence, Lord, I seek Your face, I seek Your face.
There is no higher calling, no greater honor than to bow and kneel before Your throne.
I'm amazed at Your glory, embraced by Your mercy.
O Lord, I live to worship You."

That song always gets to me. It reminds me of how unworthy I am. It makes me realize how selfish my big dreams are. I am so self-centered, constantly thinking about what I should be doing for God. Now there's nothing wrong with wanting to serve God, but I'd be lying if I said I had no ulterior motives. Following God appeals to me because He knows better than anyone what will make me happiest. Yes, I desperately want to point people to Jesus, but are those desires in me pure? I like thinking I helped someone. It makes me feel good about myself. Did you catch that--it makes Me feel good about MYSELF. Am I doing it for me or for God then? Can I honestly say I LIVE to worship Him? I'd like to, but I'm not sure I do, which is why this song always makes me cry.

Lord Jesus, I don't deserve You, yet You do embrace me with Your mercy. Why isn't it enough for me to "bow and kneel before Your throne"? Why do I think I'm so special that my calling should be more than that? Forgive me for wanting to make a name for myself as I proclaim You. Give me Your perspective. Keep working on me, Lord.