Tuesday, August 04, 2009

Take 3,048,295



Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done.

C.S. Lewis


3:00 A.M.

Again.

Wide awake.

Just when I thought I had this letting go of your kid thing down, it creeped up again. Our oldest goes back to college in a little over a week and my body has kicked into worry mode, sadness hanging nearby, anxiety about how he'll make it in life waking me up at night.

Again.

This trusting God stuff never gets easier, does it? In theory, it should. In practice, well, it's easier said than done. So at 3:AM when I toss and turn in bed, listening to the hum of the fan and my own heartbeat, I practice trusting again. I review what is true.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and do not rely on your own insight.

For the Lord longs to be gracious to you. He rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a god of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him.

Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning. Great is Your faithfulness.


As the clock ticks, I recall the goodness of God. I set my mind on things eternal. I train my heart to rely on Him.

Again.


Visit Kathryn at Expectant Hearts for more impressions of this quote.

10 comments:

Karen said...

Thanks for sharing today. Often its not easy to trust in God as we should, not because He's not reliable but because that is what we tend to do. As we grow spiritually that time between not trusting as quickly as we should and trusting Him fully and instantly shortens with each step of growth towards Him.

Debbie said...

As a mom, I'm sure this is a hard time letting your child go. But God loves Him more than ever and He is trustworthy. I know easy for me to say. But I've had to learn that in other areas of my life. Take it one day at a time and chose to trust the Lord with this moment. And then let tomorrow's moments wait until tomorrow.

MiPa said...

Practicing trusting again. How true is that! Praying for you as you let go...and for him as he settles into a new school. ((hugs))

(and thanks for the comment on my new clothes. I'm thinking that they fit pretty well...still need a few alterations.)

HisFireFly said...

Isn't it amazing to think that our awesome God even knows those moments when you will not immediately trust Him. He has incredible patience, able to wait for us..

He can be trsuted with all that concerns you, and will fill every empty place when your son goes back to school.

Kathryn @ Expectant Hearts said...

Tami, thanks for sharing.. My kids are younger (11, 7, 3) but school age begins a whole letting go process and trusting God with them (especially after having one go to Heaven) IS a new challenge every day, even when they're young!

Brenda said...

We're in that boat with you Tami. God is good.

Jaime Kubik said...

I'm not experiencing a child going off to college, but that "relying on God" starting all over again hit me right between the eyes! Man, C.S. Lewis, your quotes are amazing! Trust in the Lord....start to worry...trust in the Lord....over and over.

Thanks for the great blog! I will be praying for the fam!

e-Mom said...

Oh, back to school already? I'm still imagining you spending your day relaxing by the pool...

It's hard, it's very hard to trust and let go. Praying for you Tami Bee!

e-Mom said...

P.S. Before I forget, Wife of Rob (Jennifer Bartlett) left you a message on my "Facebook For Beginners" post. Come take a look! :~D

Holly said...

Thanks Tami! I appreciate your comment. Yes, please pray for some permanence (it's already getting better, but I can use some help!). I do enjoy my life at a fast speed, but I like to know some of the road ahead of me! Thanks - Holly