After our oldest moved away to college, I found myself living in anxiety. What if I didn't teach him everything he needed to know? Will he take care of things like he should? What if he fails? What if he doesn't grow up to be a productive adult? How will he make a way for himself? So many questions. So many fears.
It's been a year and a half now and you'd think it would have gotten better, but sadly, not so much. When I realized my fear indicated a lack of trust in God, I knew I was dealing with a spiritual problem.
I know this to be true in my head, but somehow my heart and stomach don't get the message. I think I've resigned my life into His hands, only to find myself stressing over my son again. It's not right or healthy.
True freedom from fear consists of totally resigning one’s life into the hands of the Lord.
Resigned into God’s Care
I'm not trusting God.
My fear is not produced by my son's absence. It comes from my own spiritual downfall. How can I remedy the situation?
I admit it to God. I pray for my son. I pray for peace. And every time the fear sneaks up, I remind myself, "TRUST Him. TRUST Him. TRUST Him." The anxiety flees only briefly, so I must practice the surrender over and over and over. Eventually peace will replace worry, strength will take over my weak mama's heart, courage will overtake fear.
The process is not easy, but it is doable. Peace awaits me as I learn to surrender.
You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trust in you.
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